Hey guys! Sup? lol. The last few weeks have been very weird. I met a guy, we went out a bit, he broke up with me because he thought I was younger than what I said I was, I showed him my passport to prove I was really 19, he wanted to get back together, I said "lets just be friends for now," and we have been friends since. But then his friend who was there when I first met him contacted me and said he was jealous of the guy I was seeing, and that he wants me, so I met him, he was cool, he has a nice belly, he is older, but he doesn't live in the same city as me. So basically, I have him trying to get with me, and the other guy trying to get back together with me romantically... Oh, and I forgot to mention, they both have a LOT of baggage. Like I mean mental and emotional baggage, and the bad thing is, they are both giving it all to me. One has paranoia and anxiety, the other one has drug issues. Like come on! Can't I get with a normal person? Which leads me to my main topic. Are there any normal guys out there that want me? Seriously! Do I have to lose weight to get a good guy or can I keep growing and find a good guy? So should I stop gaining and lose, or keep gaining? Finding a good guy isn't the only reason why I am stumped about gaining. We started Nutrition class two weeks ago. My God it is boring as hell, but it also got me thinking, am I eating well enough? Like I know there is a somewhat healthy way to gain, but am I doing it? I don't know... I need someone to give me a pep talk about gaining:) Anyways, I am happy otherwise. Love you all..
XOXO
Andrew
