2011- Starting Over

Hi guys. I have been swamped with a whole bunch of shit since my last post. Anyways someone said they liked my blog, and it reminded me to write a new post. So I am:)

Anyhow... My life has changed A LOT since August, my last post, and I have grown a lot since then too;) First off, I moved back to Toronto, from Woodstock, for school. As you know I have switched to Tourism Management, from Culinary Management, and I LOVE it! The first semester was really meh because of personal issues. My aunt died from cancer, we found out one of my grandpas only has a short time left because of cancer, and my other grandpa fell and had to get a pace maker, so it is kind of a bad last few months. But I managed to pass MOST of my classes, the ones I didn't I can easily do over, so no worries:) Most of my classes had no exams, which was awesome lol!

I also became more active in the Toronto Bear Community. Every Wednesday, there is a bear's game night, then on Fridays there are Bear Night, where it is just drinking and a bunch of socializing and fun. It has really boosted my confidence, to tell the truth. Made lots of new friends, and met A LOT of sexy guys:)

Then, a good thing happened, or so I thought. I started dating this guy, that I talked to for a few months, then one day we FINALLY met. He asked me to go out with him, and shit, and it was all good. One day he suddenly got crazy, and started making me buy him everything, and having weird conspiracy theories. It really scared me due to the fact I never dealt with that sort of thing. Really the scariest thing ever was when we were sitting around and I wanted to go hang out with friends, and he said if I go, I am not welcome back, and if I ever did come back, he'd take out my knees and strangle me. This was all while I was sitting right beside him. It was terrifying! I left, and haven't heard from him since, since he went to jail lol. Was kind of relieved, but then I remembered he had a cat, so I called the landlord, and made sure the cat was taken care of, and she is:) So now I am safe, and have grown from that experience. Not letting it effect me or anything. So yay!

Then finally a new semester has started. I like it better than last semester. It is more business related, which is good. I LOVE business! The internship coordinator also visited one of the classes and that got me starting to want to plan for my internship. It is next year, but still... I want to work as a tour guide in a big city, preferably in the states, but still. I am thinking Boston, New York City, Miami, New Orleans OR Los Angeles. It would be great fun, especially since there are a lot of bears and gainers in those cities;) (I am not going for just that reason though lol) I have been researching tour guide places in those cities, and there are a lot, so just need to find a place to stay and shit, and everything will fall into place. If anyone lives in those cities and wants to help me out, let me know!

2011 is now here and I shaved my head. It is time for a new and improved Andrew:D LOL I know it sounds sappy, but it is true. I hate the last few months of 2010, and I want to just start anew:)

Now, for the part you ALL want to are here to hear about, my gut! I don't eat a lot, but I am growing like a weed! Seriously! I have ballooned up big time. It is kind of surprising to me when I see pictures and I am like "am I really that big!?!??" Yes... Yes I am hehe. I am single and looking for feeders and/or encouragers and/or gainers to help me grow! Applications are open hehe, apply within:)

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Andrew:)

Quick Update

Hey guys. I am all anxious about who knows what, but I am. I haven't updated at all this summer, and I feel bad about it.
Anyways, I am now 250lbs and have a 50" belly, so I am excited about that. And I am going to Expansion in October, YAY, Always wanted to go, and now I finally can. Can't wait to spend some time with a bunch of fatties:)
Also, I have gotten 2 jobs. One is selling knives and the other is at a factory. I hate both, but I get paid well, so who the f*ck cares right?
Can't wait to go back to school, for Tourism Management. If you want to do something with me in Toronto, let me know;) Anyways, I will give you a picture and update better later.
Love you all,
Andrew

And the Job Search Begins...

Hey all! So exams are done(ew), and I am back home. I have been since May 1, but yeah, this month has gone by fast and keep forgetting to update, like usual, but here I am and it has only been a month! Hooray:) My exams sucked! I won't even say how bad I did because they sucked so bad. But at least I have 3 course credits that I can carry over to my new program:D What is my new program you ask? Drum roll please...

TOURISM MANAGEMENT!!! YAY!!! I have liked traveling and exploring since I was very young, and I thought, what the hell, I will do it. And I did. I am very happy about this decision, but now I just need to figure out what to do after college. Hmmm...

Anyways, back to personal stuff. My dog was put down on 5th:( RIP. It was her time, and it was for the best. No more suffering for her or us. Still it was sad. Someday I will get a new puppy, and be happy.
My friend is STILL MIA. UGH, come back! So I can bitch you out you stupid friend!!! *sigh* I miss him, but what can you do eh?
What else? Hmmm... Oh yeah. Why do all my favorite tv shows have to end around the same time? Hm? TELL ME WHY!!! America's Next Top Model ended, which was good because this season sucked, but I still like it. Survivor ended, which is meh, because I didn't like most of the season because Russell was overrated. So I am glad Sandra won. Can't wait for a new season! Grey's Anatomy ended too:( Best season finale ever! Almost made me tear up a little... ALMOST! The Biggest Loser is about to end. I lost track of it since I came home, but I still like it. Ashley better win or else...
It is starting to get hot and humid and sticky out, and it is starting to make me bitchy and lose my appetite. BOOOO. Yeah, but oh well, nothing will stop me muahahaha. I have no clue how much I weigh right now, I just know I am bigger, so I am happy:) Still single though:( Oh well, 1 out of 2 ain't bad. (I know it's 2 out of 3 ain't bad, but shuttup!)

Finally, I NEED A JOB! Any job would do. I applied for Tim Horton's(A Canadian coffee shop), McDonald's, Burger King, Wal Mart, another Tim Horton's, a grocery store and a bakery. I am hoping I get one of them:D *crosses fingers* I will hand out more though just in case. I just want money so I can go to Expansion(a gainer convention type thing). Wish me luck!
See you all soon!
Love,Andrew

I Am Back...

And bigger than ever!
But first things first, why I was gone... I procrastinate. HUGE flaw of mine, like really, I suck. I always tell myself that I should update my blog, and get school work done, and eat properly, but you know, I decide to watch TV instead. So much easier:) But there isn't anything good on until 8 and 9(American Idol and GLEE shoot me now!) so I said what the heck, these people deserve to know what the hell is going on with my life.
So what is going on in my life? Oh same old same old... First off, I am single:( Yoohoo boys, where art thou hotties? You have a round man waiting for you;) Secondly, I got fed up with Culinary School(No pun intended) so I decided to drop out in the summer. You can all shut your mouths right now. Culinary is fast paced and hectic, something that I am not, so I have applied for 3 new things. Tourism Management(I love travel), Hospitality Management(Slower lifestyle), and Culinary Skills(I am in Culinary Management and apparently Culinary Skills is better for tardiots like myself). So this will be the survey of the week, or year or decade or however long it takes me to update this blog again:S (Hopefully a week). Next thing going on in my life is major suckage at my courses. Like failing miserably! English-Ugh, Butchery-Ew, Humanities-Fuck off!, Sociology-don't know why I am even taking this shit, and Profits-FAIL! So not doing so well. Good thing I am not coming back to this program next year because all them teachers would be like "that SOB missed more than he was here, why the fuck is he back?" Anywho... Forthly. Forth of all? Whatever! My doggie is being put down:( I had her since I was 6, and I am 20 now, so she is old, and weak, and sick. I am trying not to think about it and hoping she gets better:) If not I love my puppy:) And finally another sad note, my friend that I started seeing, but wasn't a few months ago, has been MIA. Like for 2 months he has disappeared. Apparently he is a crack addict, and has done this before, but the police are even looking for him. I hope he is alright too:( If not RIP Jeff:( If you aren't dead you better have a damn good excuse otherwise I will never talk to you ever again.
Now on to what a lot of you only are here to read about, my weight. Yes I have expanded, yes even with being sick, and yes I am rounder, firmer and heavier than ever before. Around 240, take or leave a few. Taller somehow(don't ask). I feel amazing:D I just need someone to love and take care of this gut. It needs LOTS of loving!
I have been meeting a lot of guys from sites like Beefyfrat and Growingguys, and they have all been great! Just wish they weren't one nighters-_- Oh wells, their loss. They all say I am bigger and cuter and taller in person, so that makes me feel good. If you ever want to meet just say so, because I love meeting;)
Well my fingers are tired... From typing you sickos! Anyways, I will hopefully talk to you all soon, since I will have more time on my hands(classes finish next Friday YAY!).
Love Andrew

2010

Oh God. I wanted to keep my blog updated, I really did... But I didn't lol. Anyways, I am back now:) Who knows how much longer I will be back for though. I get sidetracked easily, you know with all the eating, and school work... And sleeping... And Facebooking... So yeah, MASSIVE ADD. I will let you know about my end of 2009.
Last time I saw you was in October, and a lot has happened personally since then. My grandpa went to the hospital for some reason, and he was there for a few weeks. They haven't really found why he was there, but it was serious, and he was weak from it. They think it was an enlarged bowel or something. I also gained a lot of weight between then and now:D
My Christmas was good, for the most part. My b*tch of a grandma made everything more difficult then it needed to be, but she does it every year, NOT just for Christmas, so I am used to it. Ate 3 different family meals. One with my mom's family, one with my dad's family, and one with just me, my mom, my dad, my sister and her boyfriend. I got money(for travelling), clothes, candy, and Wii games(Wii Fit, and Mario Kart), and other small things. Usually we get more things for Christmas, but because of both my sister and I being at school, and other shit, we couldn't afford much.
On that note, Happy belated Holidays!
New Year's was fun. I am not one to go out and party, even though some of you may think it. He knows what I am talking about;) ANYWAYS, my dad, mom, sister and her boyfriend, and I, all went bowling. It was cool. Lots of lights and stuff, so it seemed as if I was on an acid trip. Ah well, lol.
After that, my new semester began:) It will be a much more brain stimulating semester compared to last semester. I have Profit Management and the Sociology of Food, on Mondays. Humanities and English on Tuesdays. Butchery on Wednesdays. Garde Manger Theory 2, and English on Thursdays. And Advanced Culinary Knowledge and Dining Room Service on Fridays. Also on Fridays, starting in March, I will have Nutrition Practical, so I have a full load on Fridays:( But don't worry, there is ALWAYS time to eat;)
What else? Hm... Oh yeah, there is a special handsome man that I have my eye on:)
So anyways, everyone keeps on asking me how much I weigh. I seriously do not know. I haven't been on a scale since September, and I have gained a lot since then. I don't like scales, so I don't make goals based on weight. I base my goals mostly on looks. If I start not liking how I look, I will stop. That is what the Wii Fit is for:)
Anyways, if anyone has Wii, and has Brawl, or Mario Kart, hit me up with your Friend # :)

To Gain or Not to Gain...

Hey guys! Sup? lol. The last few weeks have been very weird. I met a guy, we went out a bit, he broke up with me because he thought I was younger than what I said I was, I showed him my passport to prove I was really 19, he wanted to get back together, I said "lets just be friends for now," and we have been friends since. But then his friend who was there when I first met him contacted me and said he was jealous of the guy I was seeing, and that he wants me, so I met him, he was cool, he has a nice belly, he is older, but he doesn't live in the same city as me. So basically, I have him trying to get with me, and the other guy trying to get back together with me romantically... Oh, and I forgot to mention, they both have a LOT of baggage. Like I mean mental and emotional baggage, and the bad thing is, they are both giving it all to me. One has paranoia and anxiety, the other one has drug issues. Like come on! Can't I get with a normal person? Which leads me to my main topic. Are there any normal guys out there that want me? Seriously! Do I have to lose weight to get a good guy or can I keep growing and find a good guy? So should I stop gaining and lose, or keep gaining? Finding a good guy isn't the only reason why I am stumped about gaining. We started Nutrition class two weeks ago. My God it is boring as hell, but it also got me thinking, am I eating well enough? Like I know there is a somewhat healthy way to gain, but am I doing it? I don't know... I need someone to give me a pep talk about gaining:) Anyways, I am happy otherwise. Love you all..
XOXO
Andrew

College

So I have been at school for almost 2 months now and I am loving it! I am learning a lot of new recipes, skills and everything. My first class on Monday is Basic Culinary Knowledge. This is probably the most boring class. The professor is ok, but the information is not that interesting:( Then I have Baking and Pastry Level 1 on Monday as well. It is 4.5 hours but it goes by quickly. Half of the class is theory, while half of the class is practical. I LOVE it, except for my partner who is a real bitch! Lol, ANYWAYS... I also had an online course, Food Safety and Sanitation on Mondays. It was simple... I just hope I passed:) On Tuesdays I have Basic Culinary Skills and Techniques. It is a nice class, and the chef teaching it is hot!!! LOL... On Wednesdays I have Nutritional Theory and Writing(which is also on Fridays). Half of the semester was Garde Manger Theory, and the other half is Nutritional Theory. We just had the Garde Manger exam last week, and I am almost positive that I passed:) I am not looking forward to Nutritional Theory though. It sounds REALLY boring, but oh well... I can push through it I guess:) Writing is simple. I can pass that class with my eyes closed and my hands behind my back. Thursdays I have Culinary Business and Management. The teacher is great! She is really funny and likeable. And she is Dutch, and taught some of us, a few weeks ago on a field trip, how to make some delicious Dutch Apple Pie. I LOVE DUTCH APPLE PIE! Then on Fridays I have Writing again, and I have Garde Manger practical. That is such a fun class. The chef is a wacky German guy who likes making sexual references every chance he gets. So anyways, I love the classes! There are also some pretty hot guys at school, but most of them are not gay or big:( Which sucks but oh well. There is a guy from bearforest.com that goes here though, but we have never talked. I am definitely growing and definitely loving it. Anyone want to help me love it? Hehe